11.12.2022
dear Josh,
I’m sitting on Amtrak on the way to NY. 🚂 I don’t know when you’ll find the little box, just hoping I have the time to write this as we our bodies and minds cool down from the sprint to the train. I wonder when/how you’ll find it. I wonder if you went looking around your bed again, under the pillows, where I originally stashed it. 🤔
We have just embarked on the Venus sequence! All about love and opening our hearts, to ourselves and to others. Paul Rudd says we are brave for taking on this journey because, as we know, this is not only about accessing our deepest love but also accepting and heeling our deepest wounds. so it’s right on time that we triggered each other right before my departure 😅
This charm represents to me our life long journey of opening our hearts. It says:
+ qu'hier - que demain
(more than yesterday, less than tomorrow)
This gift is not a symbol for some vision for some future romantic relationship but rather a symbol for the agreement we’re making to love each other the way M. Scott Peck and Bell Hooks define it:
“The will to extend one's self for the purpose of
nurturing one's own or another's spiritual growth.”
- M. Scott Peck
We came together intentionally from this place of love, and now, we separate intentionally from this place of love. It is because I want to nurture both your and my own spiritual growth that I embrace our separation.
While it’s true for me, that I love you more than yesterday and less than yesterday, it is also true for myself- I love myself more each day. It’s not easy, the more I learn about myself, the more dark cluttered corners I find, full of empty water glasses and crinkled tissues 🤭 but I started this self-love path and now there’s no going back! I want the same for you, that you love yourself more each day even when, especially when, things feel scary, dark, and out of control. I want this necklace to be your reminder: that you are a remarkable miraculous being and you have everything you need inside of you. All the love you have ever wanted or haven’t received, all of it, is inside of you, because you ARE love. It’s just who and what you are!
So! Here’s my toast to us 🥂
May we love each other, ourselves, and others more each day.
May we accept in ourselves what we’ve been told is unacceptable,
love what is unlovable, and allow all that is to simply be.
The charm is now fixed to the chain, I got the loop closed so that it won’t fall off. I remember you wanting another inch so I asked the lady for more chain and haven’t hear back yet, in the meantime I added some other chain with extra length at the end so you can wear it, if you’d like.
I love you,
Jeanne